What's left

I had a dream that Paris burned to the ground
Nothing was left of the city people dream of, just rubble and ash
My dream lasted a week, I wasn't sure if Paris was actually gone or if it was just playing hide and go seek
I avoided Paris for as long as I could
As soon as I knew it was still there I came back
Maybe it was the thought of going to Paris and seeing it in shambles or maybe I was afraid to be inspired by it.
I sat in my desk overlooking the Eiffel Tower that night, breathed a sign of relief and laid down my notebook
When I picked up my pen for that entry things were different, there was more to it
When I started writing things got hard like gum after it's been chewed for hours upon hours
But it was fun, the gum still had flavor and I couldn't seem to stop chewing
Paris is back and it's going to stay there in that little place in my heart right next to my hopes and dreams
They same Rome wasn't built in a day but Paris was rebuilt in one

I really don't like talking

I am sitting on the edge of the world looking out into the darkness

How could someone have so much to do with how I feel

I don't know if there is a direct correlation

But there is a knot in my stomach it is tearing my insides apart 

Ripping them up piece by piece and I'm going to throw up

When something in my life happens it's usually cause someone says
"We need to talk"
Throwback to 4th grade when I came home from a friends house to get stuff for a sleep over
My mother shattered my world for the first time when she told me she was getting a divorce
"We need to talk"
I got fired from my first job and I was excited but then hated it
It wasn't me it was him
Thanks for framing me for something I didn't do douche bag
"We need to talk"
When the girl told me how she felt and I had to act like nothing happened
It was then when my broken heart fell apart
I had to pick up the pieces for the 189th time and it still hurt just as bad

So real talk? No don't waste my time with talking to me about something I shouldn't worry about
Stick to talking behind my back and letting me live in ignorance
Cause if you tell me something I can't do I'll prove you wrong.